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  • Juliette Angelo

It's been a minute since I have sat down and written something. Admittedly, I have exited hibernation mode in my life, which has led to a plethora of new opportunities, which has left me... well, busy.

I remember wondering if this 'stagnation' was ever going to end. I am someone who has a lot of ambition, dreams, talents, and these past few years I have had immeasurable growth within myself - but externally, my circumstances didn't change much.

Well, that's not true. I've changed states thrice. But when it comes to fulfillment in my day to day life - be that creatively - like singing, acting, etc - I wasn't meeting that. I was focusing on myself, which is a job in and of itself, but much of that growth is internal. I feel like a completely different human being than I was 3 years ago (I'm not even sure if I qualified as a human being three years ago) but creatively, I wasn't stimulated. I was in my 'preparation' phase - a wonderful phase, with a promise of much to come - but I was so fixed on self growth and dealing with my day to day challenges there wasn't much room for creativity.

If you're in that 'preparation' stage, and you're asking yourself if it will ever end, here's your answer: it will. And when it does, you're going to think - wow, that was sooner than I thought.

I'm in a very active stage of living right now. Life ebbs and flows, I'm sure I'll have another stage of reflection and hibernation at some point - but not for a while. I've spent all this time working on myself and preparing myself for my future - a very bright future I promised myself long ago. What I have learned is, the Universe knows better than you. If I received everything I wanted when I wanted it, it would've been a disaster, and I would've learned very quickly I didn't actually want any of that anyway. I wanted the idea of it.

I've always known my path in this life - even if I felt as though I veered off course once or twice, or I questioned that path. Even when I was confused about my future, and seriously considered dropping off the face of the planet and living a very quiet existence, sans any type of creative endeavors whatsoever.

I used to fear my own potential - I think this is a commonality with those who have been taught to diminish themselves - almost as though my own potential was offensive. I carried guilt for what lived within me. I guess I carried this fear of being "different". I was scared that my life could be something more. I had been sad for so long I was scared to be happy. I was terrified that what I was taught about myself wasn't true. That all those characteristics I adopted because someone told me that was how I was meant to behave were false. When you believe that someone is in control of your life and identity, it feels illegal when you realize they are not.

I have always known I held great talent, that I was destined for a grand life. I've been told since I was a child. I believe that the greatest artists have experienced the most pain. It is the battle of letting go of that pain to allow the future to come into fruition, that is what I struggled with.

"Stay humble." There is a balance of being humble and appreciating yourself. I don't believe in denying your own greatness - how else are you supposed to step into your power? If you spend your whole life believing you are small, you are going to be small. If you believe you are capable of extraordinary things, you will achieve those extraordinary things. What you believe is what is.

I know what I hold within myself, I understand the path that has been given to me. I recognize that my gifts are both for myself and for others. I am so excited to begin this chapter. I have been waiting so long to introduce myself to the world and it is finally happening. And I am doing it my way. A la Frank Sinatra.

The opposition you face becomes quieter and quieter the less and less you enable it. The more you focus on yourself, rid negative energies, people, places, things.... The more and more you see the beauty the world has to offer. The Universe has to know what to give you - if you want grandeur, you will get grandeur. But there is an action required, that action is to simply believe you are deserving of it. To create your own reality, to actively be a part of positive change. To listen to your intuition so fiercely nothing and no one can steer you off track (they will try). To understand that you are your environment - if you are around energies that believe nothing is possible, nothing will be possible.

Keep your circle small. I need myself and maybe three friends in this lifetime. Double one of them as a husband, I'm good to go. I love performing, I can entertain a crowd of one or one million and not bat an eye, but when it comes to bringing people into my home - showing them my most authentic self - there are only very few that get to see that. I am sacred, and only those who recognize that are welcomed within my space. It is so important to protect ourselves and our energies. This is something I learned recently, I know I have spoken about my lack of boundaries before (being conditioned to believe you are for everyone else - mind, body, spirit, will do that) and I have finally instilled an almost fortress around me. It's great, you should try it.

Stand firm in who you are. If you haven't figured that out yet, just stand firm. Fake it till you make it. I love who I am - I think I'm great. It was through self love that I discovered what a incredible being I am. It is through self love that we all discover that. Everyone has limitless potential. As soon as you stop blaming your external circumstances for your internal struggles, change happens. As soon as you stop blaming others for the way you are, and instead start rewiring yourself to be who you want to be, change happens. As soon as your realize that there are literally no excuses as to why you cannot live a beautiful life filled with love and happiness except for your own personal choice to not pursue that path - change happens.

Change is change is change is change is change. If you want it, get it. It is that simple.

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  • Juliette Angelo

In my last post, I shared a quote that I recently discovered. "People act like you are hard to deal with when you are not easy to fool". The first time I read that I laughed out loud. The truth of that statement hit home.

Standing up for yourself is a foreign language when you have been taught to bend over for others. I used to be someone who never wanted to ruffle feathers, never wanted to step on anyone's toes. I would people please and desperately try to win over everyone. I know I have mentioned this a few times in these blogs, but being taken advantage of was just a part of my everyday life. I had become so used to that I couldn't even tell it was happening until I grew up and really analyzed my relationships.

Growing up in the acting industry, especially in LA, everyone is trying to climb the ladder. If you're on a TV show, you suddenly have 20 new best friends. If you're not working, you try to befriend someone who is. Actors hang out in cliques - they even brand their own friendship groups - and the parents only support this behavior. I lived in LA for 10 years, I do not carry over one friendship from acting into my adulthood. If that doesn't say something, I don't know what does.

The entertainment industry is a beast. Anyone will tell you this. You are constantly at the approval of casting, directors, producers, writers.... You are constantly hoping for that one chance, for that one green light. You are seeking out others validation and you are taught to do anything to get the job. The industry preys on desperate, vulnerable people. Especially young people. Teenagers have their identities crafted into whatever is most marketable. You are constantly at the surrender of someone else, and unless a young actor has a very strong foundation and protective parents (which, let's be honest, is like finding a needle in a haystack) most of the time these actors grow up to emulate their personal relationships after this same behavior.

I cannot believe the people I allowed to be my 'friends' when I was younger. Not that I was in control of much at that time. They were vultures - predators who just wanted a piece of me, of my success, of my spirit. A wolf in sheep's clothing, they call it. The parents were really the ones at fault, for who else is teaching them this behavior? We were all kids. I never went to high school, but I imagine it is a similar experience, only amplified by money and fame and status.

Recently, I have run into a few situations where I have been more honest than ever before. Instead of biting my tongue, I speak my truth. Instead of letting someone take advantage of me, I call them out on exactly what I know they are doing. Can it be difficult? Sometimes. Especially if you are conditioned to always back down. But it is so empowering. You need to teach people how to treat you. If you allow others to walk all over you, in hopes that one day it'll just change, it's not going to happen. You need to confront those people and speak up for yourself. Put out that energy. It will attract good people into your life.

The most important thing is your peace. If there is someone that you care about, but they disturb your peace, it is more than okay to take a step back. Temporarily, permanently. Whatever feels right. There is nothing wrong with setting boundaries. People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. I didn't understand why some friendships in my past seemed so wonderful at first and then turned so toxic - and honestly, that's okay, I don't need to understand. What I do know is that it made me grow as a person and I am better for it. I am better for it by walking away, and knowing that I deserved more.

Reminder: you don't owe anybody anything. You may think you do, but you don't. If someone does something out of the goodness of their heart, you don't need to offer them anything in return. If you want to, sure. If it feels right, okay. But if someone truly cares about you, they will not use those acts of service against you.

I have run into that time and time again. Someone will do something for me, seemingly completely without any type of expectation attached, and then, they will flip the script. They get me where they want me, and then they will try to take advantage of me. When I accuse them of this, they'll in turn gaslight me or try to paint me out to be the problem. Like I said, 'People will act like you are hard to deal with when you are not easy to fool'. They bombard you with love, with kindness, and then they turn on you. It either has to do with money, or ego, or control, or all of it. Handle it with grace and stand up for yourself. They crumble, every time. No one is weaker than someone who preys on the vulnerable. Remember that.

I love speaking up. It has become my superpower. I love setting solid boundaries and standing firm in myself. I think it is a gift to be able to do so. When that switch flipped in my brain, and I suddenly had the courage to start using my voice, it's like I never wanted to stop. I can't believe how many people walk around like robots, just regurgitating each other's thoughts and beliefs instead of thinking for themselves. I can't believe I used to be one of them. I followed whatever anybody said on instagram, and not what I actually thought for myself. When you wake up, you realize how many people are asleep.

Speak up. You won't regret it.

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  • Juliette Angelo

What a difference a year can make, right?

I saw a post on social media that said to compare your first selfie of 2020 to your last selfie of 2022. I went from a messy green haired girl holding an alcoholic drink to a nearly 2 year sober blonde haired lady with a glass of sparkling apple cider.

I don't reflect as often on my life as I probably should, mainly because I make a conscious effort to live in the present moment. Time moves so fast sometimes I wonder if it's even real. This past year has simultaneously felt like an eternity and a minute. Entering 2023, I am finally living in happiness, which does cause life to move a lot quicker. I am no longer struggling with myself, or with my circumstances, or with my past. I am eagerly approaching the future and appreciating the present. But dang, time flies.

This time last year I was about a month away from releasing the podcast that changed my life. I am so grateful for Hope is the Bird and the emotional, physical, and spiritual freedom it granted me. 2022 was one of the most intense cycles of my life, but looking back, I realize - despite the pandemonium surrounding me - I was always safe and protected. My trajectory was crystal clear - liberate yourself, take control of your life, be a part of the change, take time to process and heal, move forward.

Stepping into 2023, I feel lighter than ever. I have a world of opportunities at my doorstep. I am surrounded by great friends, I have a peaceful home, and I am excited about my future. I feel like I am back in the land of living, finally. With a social life and friends and fun. Fun is fun!

There are cycles in our lives that are more challenging than others. I believe they are preparing us for our future. Last year allowed me to fully step into myself. I let go of the version of myself I wore to survive. I no longer silenced myself out of fear of being disbelieved. I am so unbelievably proud of myself for taking initiative of my life and stepping into my power. In doing so, I found out others true colors, learned that family has nothing to do with blood, and that life is a mysterious and wonderful thing.

I learned about boundaries, I learned about standing up for myself. I learned that others will act like you are hard to deal with when you are not easy to fool. That real friends stand beside you no matter what. That it is okay to outgrow relationships. That love isn't and shouldn't be scary.

I do not censor myself anymore in fear of being 'too much'. I do not pay any mind to those who attempt to defame me. I do not feed into any negative energies that try to infiltrate my life, as I have learned from experience that feeding them is exactly what makes them multiply. I've learned that people only attack you because of their own internal struggles. Nothing negative said to me or about me has anything to do with me. The freedom that comes with knowing that fact altered my entire perspective, and allowed me to look at those attackers with greater empathy.

I remember walking into 2021 feeling defeated. As if I had nothing to live for, and no where to go. Like I kept running into this brick wall within my mind. I couldn't think towards the future, I couldn't think, period. I was trapped in this haze of pain and confusion. I felt completely disconnected from myself and my body. I spent every day just floating around. Stuck in the clouds. I was so miserable and alone.

I wish I could give that girl a glimpse of the life I have now. Grounded, healing, excited and optimistic. Not knowing the path, but knowing it is an amazing one. Completely at peace with just living. No more chasing the gold at the end of the rainbow. Recognizing that the gold is within me. The rainbow has always been over my head. (Thank you, Kacey Musgraves.) I hope all of us can see that one day.

Happy New Year. Let's celebrate this gift of life and step forward with grace. Practicing gratitude for the opportunity to experience another cycle. 2023 is a year full of magic. I'm calling it.

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